Weekly peek #2

So it’s Sunday again. That means another peek at my weekly view.

It has been a strange week for me. In random bouts of boredom, I switched around and played with different planner page styles. Just for the heck of it. But I still kept up with my week on two page view. I sifted through different tab dividers and just killed time really. I doodled, I journaled, I read, I cleaned.

I struggle to make my week feel, or seem, interesting. :/ I even went so far as to break out my tarot cards again, and do a daily reading… Just started that today actually, as you can see.
Funnily enough, my reading today tells me I should be doing more with myself. Working, playing… Doesn’t matter, I gotta get a balance in there and right now I’ve got nothing. (Anywho, that’s neither here nor there)

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Next week, I have made it a goal to get out of the house just a bit each day. Whether it is for a walk, or a trip to chick fil a for some play place time for Cale, or library trips. Just something. Fingers crossed for that working out. I also have another blog post planned, kind of an update on my filofax… More of an “Oh, by the way…” Lol

Anyway… Lets see what happens in this coming week, shall we?

On a more personal note…

I’m going a tad stir crazy. Being a stay at home mom is tough. It gets really boring playing with a toddler all day 24/7… And before anyone starts in with the “how can you say that? Children are a gift…” And yadda yadda. I would like to point out. I know that. I believe that. I wouldn’t change my life for anything. Actually, that isn’t entirely true. If I could change anything, it would be me.
I would replace the introvert parts of me. I would give myself some more giddy up. I’d make myself more comfortable with trying new things. That way I would have gone to the playgroup I found on meetup.com and I would have made it to the library storytime, and so on.

I put these things in my planner, but when the time comes I find a reason not to go. The sad part is that half the reason I don’t go is because I don’t feel like pretending. Pretending I’m enjoying something I’m not, or pretending to agree with different parenting styles that I think are freaking ridiculous. I don’t feel like putting on make up to seem like I have it together. Most days, you’re lucky to get a smile about being awake before 7 am. Coffee doesn’t cut it, and my uber caffeinated tea doesn’t either.
Often I feel like waking up to see my sons smiling face should be reason enough to get up in the mornings… But truthfully… He doesn’t always wake up smiling. There are days when he’s a cranky butt, and I have to grin and bear it. Tell myself over and over that its a phase. Or that once he’s talking it will be easier to understand why he’s so mad about everything. Sometimes, he’ll be in that mood and I will be in a great mood and his mood can’t phase me. Other times, I hide in the bathroom and cry because I’m tired. I am a tired mom. Not always. But I have those days. Then my hubby comes home and I cry on his shoulder and he reminds me that I’m not the only tired mother.
And maybe that is the point of this post. To tell those other tired mothers… I’m tired too.
That is, I hope there are other tired mothers out there. It’s a terrible feeling when your kid exhausts you, and that voice in head convinces you that you are inadequate.

So I guess a belated New Years resolution is to get out more. This one will be hard for me, as I get so down on myself and never want to do anything. And it’s not really fair to my son. So! Come Friday (the next story time at the library) my son and I will be there. If it kills me. 😉

PS. As I stated in the beginning of this post, this is a personal post. None of these things are entirely easy to talk about, and if you have anything judgmental to say keep it to yourself. I am judgmental enough of myself. But I think it will help in a strange way to put it out in the open like this.

I entered a competition!

So, in my Internet meanderings, I found a competition. You can draw write or create something! I drew a picture, although I would have loved to write something. But I just felt I needed more time to pull a story together. My picture is done, but I want to add some color over the weekend.

Anyway, I wanted to add a link to the blog hosting the contest.

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Looking forward to posting my drawing here. It’s nothing fancy. But it gave me something to do. And you just never know when you might win something. 😉

A little bit of nothing…

This is not a planned post. I don’t have any pictures to wow you. No special quotes or how to’s…

But, I am perfectly content with life and just wanted to share that with the world.

In the past couple of weeks, I have come to terms with my Filofax/planner/office supply addiction(hobby, love affair type thing.)
I think the blogging helps. Commenting on different things, like facebook groups, and browsing Flickr and such also helps. Its nice to know that I am not the only stationery lover out there. That other people can appreciate the smell of fresh paper, leather, and watching the ink dry on your page.

I have been able to comfortably bounce back and forth between 3 different planners, to find the exact right fit for me. I’ve taken notes on what works and what doesn’t. I have lists of different blogs I enjoy following, which sellers I have found for different supplies when I need them, and where I can find some really decent templates, and the like. (blog plug: www.philofaxy.blogspot.com, ) And I have been able to do all this without feelings of weirdness. Well, maybe a little weird. Like I’ve said in a previous post, I’m sure my family is planning an intervention as we speak.

But still, some people have scrapbooking, photography, or… I dunno… stamp collecting?
While I have Filofaxing. To be fair, its not just Filofax that I enjoy. But as far as the main item, it would definitely be Filofax. It is the bind that I keep going back to. It is the binder that can take a beating. (seriously, as a mother of a toddler, I am not nice to my planners… things happen, and they have to be tough.)

Anyway, my hobby has kept me sane, and sharing it has helped even more so.

I do want to remind everyone that I have other loves in my life. My son, my husband… my home, reading… writing, any kind of art… it goes on and on.
I’m still reading my first book of my A – Z challenge, but as soon as I’m done I will be posting a review on that. I’ve never written a book review before, and I’m looking forward to it.

Well, readers, I’ve lost my steam.

Good night all…
Happy Planning. 😀

2013 Filofax Update

My friends and family, if any are following my blog, are probably concerned about me, and are very likely considering having me admitted to a rehab center for the filofax obsessed. Hehe… But you know what… I’m not really bothered by that. I love them, and they love me. And I’m not forcing them to read my blogs. So really, the only ones who do find themselves visiting frequently are probably just as “Filo-obsessed” as I am. 🙂

Anyway, for today, I’m just doing an update on how my metropol is working for me, and the set up I’ve finally settled with. Now, you’ve already seen her in my book journal post. But, here is a pic of her now for good measure.

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(any ideas on what I should name her? I’m thinking Rosie. Actually, it just came to me now.)

Anyway, I’ve been using the week on two pages. I was right in thinking that it wouldn’t have enough room for my todo’s each day, so I tried two days per page for like a day and a half, and just didn’t like not being able to see the whole week. So I ended up with a blank note page in the middle of my WO2Pg. For my to do list. It has actually turned out way more practical, because I don’t always get things done on the day I want them done, and it was going to get really messy moving things to the next day. Now I just fill out my weekly tasks, and move anything to the next week if it doesn’t get done.

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Other than that, I’ve just moved some lists around and such, but that’s not very important. I do have a couple pics to add, for the sake if adding. 😉
The first is my cover page. Found it in a Martha Stewart magazine, and it fit me.

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Then we have a card that I cut into a tab divider. It’s cute.

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Another divider, also from the Martha Stewart magazine, although this time I just glued it right to the divider.

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I’m slowly changing up my dividers as I’m coming across things I like. My tab sections are still up in the air. For now I have a list section, and a journaling section, and a novel section (with notes for a book I’m writing) but that’s about it…. I know it will work itself out.
And that is all I have for you tonight.

Hope it was worth the read. 🙂

A week in review…

Here is my weekly peek as promised. I always love browsing the interwebs to see how others use their planners, and how they make the different page formats work for them. And over at PaperLovestory, you can always find her weekly views to be inspiring. She invited others to join in on her weekly view posts, and I’ve accepted.

So here goes:

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Not as cute as others I’ve seen… But, it gets the job done without the boring black and white. This is my first time in years using the personal size format. So it’s been a bit of an experiment, to see if its suitable for me size wise.
As you can see, I’ve only been in it since Thursday. But I went through and added some doodles to New Years… I think that is what I enjoy the most. At the end of the day, I can go through and if I have space, I’ll add a little doodle that fits my day or mood.

I think for next week I’m going to have a before and after pic. So you can see how much I actually add in there.